Regrets

I wasn’t taught that friendships were made to last
I wasn’t sure that bonds would go above and beyond
I wasn’t taught that honesty includes saying no
I wasn’t sure I would be cool enough to keep friends

So when they left it was all my fault

I wasn’t taught to be yourself all the while becoming your best self

I wasn’t sure my best self would one day come
I wasn’t taught to love and let go when it won’t work
I wasn’t sure that love would ever last
I wasn’t taught that the circle of life goes on
I wasn’t sure that I would be fine without all of you

All of you who I wanted to stay so bad, friends and lovers I had drawn in my heart

All of you who knew me before I became me
All of you who knew the shadow that was me
When I wasn’t sure of anything at all

And if we are being honest, I am still not entirely sure
I only wish I knew how to have been with you all